Saturday, November 16, 2013


I surrender. My positive attitude failed me. I did all I could think would work. I tried and there's no difference. I run out of idea, I run out of hope, I run out of courage, I run out of strength. Why am I still holding on when I see no change? Why should I still believe that the future could be different?

I hate myself right now. I hate that I let myself be in this situation. I hate that I am the one who hurts myself. I hate that I make myself get used to pain. 

Do me a favor and lie to me that I'm doing just fine.Won't you?

Thursday, November 14, 2013

Which would you trust?

The decision that was drawn base on no subject, without knowing, without control, without a single second to think through but a belief which out of the blue rules the world of your own or the moment where you have seen things through, studied the facts, laid out the rules and made the final judgement which in the end you question yourself what if you had it decided the other way around; however, unable to get back and re do it all over again?

I guess I'm being vague as I always have been or I've always been honest to myself yet the world is unable to accept this one true self?

Yes. You don't know which one to answer.

Wednesday, November 13, 2013

Sleeping Issue

I have an issue. I tend to sleep more than I should. I tend to sleep longer hours than my physical need. I tend to be able to sleep at any given moment. I tend to sleep even I am not given the moment to sleep. I tend to think about sleeping more than anything. I tend to miss sleeping even when I sleep. I tend to wish I could sleep when I was at work. I tend to daydream sleeping. I tend to love sleeping a lot more than any other activity. I tend to always want to sleep. Okay, that's my sleeping issue bahahaha...

Tuesday, November 12, 2013

1st time skating

My first time skating was very bad but we did smile really good here hahaha...