Which would you trust?

The decision that was drawn base on no subject, without knowing, without control, without a single second to think through but a belief which out of the blue rules the world of your own or the moment where you have seen things through, studied the facts, laid out the rules and made the final judgement which in the end you question yourself what if you had it decided the other way around; however, unable to get back and re do it all over again?

I guess I'm being vague as I always have been or I've always been honest to myself yet the world is unable to accept this one true self?

Yes. You don't know which one to answer.