Saturday, December 31, 2005

Time flies...

Finally, our last day came. I am sad yet he made my day special with his bouquet follow by a meaningful written card. I was all the way lost in thought and scare of seeing him away, suddenly, his touch awaken me to be in reality that I can still see him with the look of his, sending back to me. Later having a talk to which I did enjoy, however, with sadness in mind. It's hard to show out though.

His last smile still appears in the eye of mine...


Thursday, December 29, 2005

He's back!

Finally my brother's back again. I didn't go to get him thought as the time he came, I was busy doing the exam :( SO BAD!!! Not too bad though since I got to meet U after exam. It was short but fun. I like it :)

Wednesday, December 28, 2005

I wonder why

It's hard to tell how I feel exactly. It happened with my sense and I know what I was doing. Still I feel sth, stht that cant make me fully happy with what I did. Why? The question keeps on asking me that I could not find even just one stupid answer.



Tuesday, December 27, 2005

Still ME...

On 24th, I went to my school party, RULE, with my bf. There I met many friends of mine. Not only those studying at RULE but also at IFL. Also those who are not studying with me and some of my relatives. I felt really great to have him walking by my side. Moreover, sitting, talking, and dancing till I forgot about the time to come home. I did enjoy it alot. You know, I had never thought I would dare to reveal the truth but his love had given me strenght to be brave and finally, I did it. However, it's not enough to built my confident in making decision once I got another contrasting idea. But because of this contrasting idea, I know how great is his love to me untill I feel I'm not good enough to get such a nice guy like him. He always cheer me up whenever I'm down, but I never turn him up, worse, I always make him confused with my nonsense thought. More, I never speak out the real reason. I still cant change myself, 'd rather be understood than to tell.

Thursday, December 15, 2005

New DC again!

Have I told you that I lost my DC last time?

Well, forget it! I got a new one now.

It's new to me but it's not a latest model that I want, however, since it's only 4.1mega pixel. But nah... got heuy mech teat? :P

Well, this is what my dad got for me as he's just back from KL. Lovely daddy ;)


A rose of love~*

*~A rose of love...

As I was about to finished my sms, a lovely sms recieved. I feel loved once opening my eyes and see his lovely words sending to me. Time to get ready for my morning date. I felt good to leave home for a meeting that I've been waiting for a whole night. There, I sat alone waiting for my love to be with... Never had I enjoy waiting like this time since it's for my spcial person who is him. There he comes... with a lovely rose, handed to me with his sweet smile... I feel loved and surprised... It's so touchy, honey!

...that fills my heart~*

Wednesday, December 14, 2005

4th day

Decision had made. I'm in the present so nothing to care about the past so does the future lolz... I am so happy recently that most of my friends said "you look so happy, Phors!!!", they also asked "Sth good had happened to u or wat?" and some other say "you are so sweet recently" hehehehe... I agree with that. Sth that is really good had happened to me. That is his present nos ey ;) Kekekeke... Having him around, the world seems to be real nice and beautiful. I love that and wish it will always be so. However, it's not gonna last long. It doesnt mean he'll be gone but it's just he will be no longer here beside me in the very near future. Well, well, well,... I still got 16days. So need to think of how to use it wisely vinh pror ser cheang hehehe... Hum... you know what? One policy in mind is not to miss a kiss even one day :P That means I'll be meeting him everyday lolz...

Anyway, today things seems to be so nice. I did have a great time in the morning with my friends. Enjoy talking in class, actually hahahaha... we asked our male friends to give us present on X'mas but in order to get that we need to do the assignment for them lolz... Lazy mate, they are! Greedy girls, we are as well hahaha... BTW, in the afternoon the class was set to be 3hours straigh with AL, a subject to which considered to be a sleepy one. And I had thought I would felt asleep during the class but it turned out to be sth different from what I had expected. I enjoy it alot and so does everyone else since he had made alot of fun during the lesson. Finally, the eveing came. Sorry honey to keep you waiting since I wanna go with yan hehehe... I know you would never mind that, right? That's why you are always good in my thought hehehe... Tell you one thing chos, I was quiet because I was thinking what should I do with you when the time to leave comes hehehe... and what i did to you before leaving is what I had thought :P

Ok, should sleep now cos Tmr got special appointment phorng hehehehe...


Monday, December 12, 2005

It was just a past What do you think about the past?
Me: It has nothing to do with the present but still I feel sth wrong with it. Is it important to think of it over and over again?
Me: Not at all. So why still you think about it?
Me: I don't know, it's the feeling itself, not me lolz... Hmm... we cant take back what had already happened so why not just being happy with what we did?
Me: I don't know, it's a kinda mixed feeling. Mixed feeling again?
Me: Er... yeah, I always have this kind of feeling. When are you going to get over it?
Me: don't know, can you please stop asking me? !!!

Saturday, December 10, 2005

He's coming!!!!

It's 12o'clock now... I'm so excited that in just another 4hours I'll be meeting him hehehehe... Really really really happy man na :D

gotta go for lunch now ;)


Friday, December 09, 2005

Wouldn't it be lovely?

Having back the internet connection hadn't cheered me up as much as the present of the person in my soul. It's not only the feeling that had been touched but the whole heart is held and warmth by the sweet words which had flown out smoothly with the emotional feeling that leaded by my love. The image of romantic moment had been formed within the thought of mine and his: lifted up by him and got hold by me, gently kissed by us. Wouldn't that be lovely?

I had just said that time does fly but now it comes out in a different way. In other hours I'll be seeing him right in front of me but I feel I have to wait like years. Time is crawling now :((

Miss and Love from all my heart...


Thursday, December 08, 2005

Will it be???

It's been along long time that I've left this blog to be out of date. It just happen to me that the internet was down for more than a month. I was so bored and stressed but it might have beeen good as well, as i usually completed my work, and i did review the lesson before test or exam. The result turned out to be good, just like wat i suppose to get. I'm happy but I'm stress again when it's time for another work to be done. Why there always are things for me to do all the time? (sight)

Anyway, I just got the internet connection back that then I started to use it endlessly lolz... Well, I suddenly got one comment for my old old old journal which makes me think that time does fly. It seems like yesterday that it just happened but now it's time for another thing to happen. Yet they both are different. I'd rather to have only one of them which is the Meeting without Leaving. Somehow, it's not gonna be like what I wish for. Just as what I always said to myself, wish is always a wish. However, I'll spend it as wisely as i could do for him and esp.for my heart in this coming event. Will I ever be able to do with my packed schedule? Will I ever be able to do as what I planned to? Will it be the real memorable days of ours? Or bla bla bla....???

Let's just wait and see, another word that I always use.

Thursday, October 27, 2005

Happy Family

I just sit and design again... useless, i know but well, it's just my favorite thing to do already lolz...

anyway, what do you think about these two logo? which one do u like? to me, i prefer the new one hahahaha... i just like sth new, that's it :P

Tuesday, October 25, 2005

Sth different


I seem to have done sth unsual for my days. Since yesterday, i went to library to search for more info about my teaching technique that I did this afternoon. I did enjoy sitting and reading all those book i chose, Puzzle, Words Square, ... .

This morning I went to the library again (in diffrent school) to look for any thesis that might have the same topic as mine. Rarely had I go to library since last year, but I always got the ID card to borrow the book though. Hum... it was good to be in there as I found it interesting to see many books. I didn't have enough time for reading, however.

After leaving school i rush back to my house to pick my sis and went shopping. We did go to many places such as Book shop, Bank, Post office, Printed house, and Lucky super market in just 2hours hehehe... Did enjoy buying lolz...

Time does flies, just as i finished my lunch it almost time for my next class. Quickly printed my paper and made copies then went to school, i was a bit late. It's nearly my turn, my phone range and there's sms from him. He's just right at the time. I feel great, really great, indeed, that I did my job happily though it was not a perfect one as it's my first time in teaching. Thanks so much for Ur sms dear.

Anyway, I didn't feel well at all after that then i decided not to go for class this evening. After having a rest, i still don't feel good :( What to do?


Sth different


I seem to have done sth unsual for my days. Since yesterday, i went to library to search for more info about my teaching technique that I did this afternoon. I did enjoy sitting and reading all those book i chose, Puzzle, Words Square, ... .

This morning I went to the library again (in diffrent school) to look for any thesis that might have the same topic as mine. Rarely had I go to library since last year, but I always got the ID card to borrow the book though. Hum... it was good to be in there as I found it interesting to see many books. I didn't have enough time for reading, however.

After leaving school i rush back to my house to pick my sis and went shopping. We did go to many places such as Book shop, Bank, Post office, Printed house, and Lucky super market in just 2hours hehehe... Did enjoy buying lolz...

Time does flies, just as i finished my lunch it almost time for my next class. Quickly printed my paper and made copies then went to school, i was a bit late. It's nearly my turn, my phone range and there's sms from him. He's just right at the time. I feel great, really great, indeed, that I did my job happily though it was not a perfect one as it's my first time in teaching. Thanks so much for Ur sms dear.

Anyway, I didn't feel well at all after that then i decided not to go for class this evening. After having a rest, i still don't feel good :( What to do?


Saturday, October 22, 2005

A day after a happy day


Today, I went to school for Computer class to which I found it boring since it's too slow in progress. However, I never miss even one session; furthermore, I always be on time. Only for attendance though. Everyone in the class had seen me in TV last night. How can they see me? It's just because I went to MLTR's live concert. I did look crazy that people might have madly laughed at me. I know, it's just they are not me. Why do I have to care? I firstly feel good about myself not to think of other's view towards me but later when someone suddenly asked "aint you ashamed to be seen in such a way?" ... "I don't wanna talk about it". Why do I have to bother thinking of such a question? It's just I can't stop my brain not to work on it.


I was late again for afternoon class. It's nothing much to think about since my Lec. is kind enough to have tried explaining me about the lesson, he didn't see me in what I had thought he would as everyone might have thought of me but he seems to care about me as others who are being on time. Frankly, he's not really good at giving lecture yet he cares a lot about his student, I would say this is called being a good teacher. During the break, I went down with my friend, who wants to ask for permission to be off for 5days and who had given me present after coming back from VN. She's going there to check her ears to which having problem. Well, when I'm back there were no one in class except my bag and my other friend's bag. Damn it!!! I had never thought that these new classmate would be this helpless just to carry my bag along to the other room. Well, I might be too new for them but how about their old mate's bag? Hum... they are too individual.


Thursday, October 20, 2005

I don't know what I'm saying

Being someone that ppl consider to be better is not as nice as they had thought. It's just you'll never know unless you face it youreself... I'm tired again.


Tuesday, October 11, 2005

I really think you should learn how to park your car

Today, I was early for class which had made me parked my car somwhere else that I thought would be better than the place where I usually park. However, it turned out to be worse as when I came to take the car, it was stuck. Couldn't go back nor forward, nor left or right but still where it was. No way could be found to leave so I have to put myself calm and have a drink and do some homework to kill the time. I did ask the security guard there to help me but he's so useless. It seems to be a waste of money when school hire them to work but they can do nothing to help when there's a problem. I felt really bad when I got a chance to leave school early but need to wait for an hour and a half to get out. However, it was not too bad since I finished my homework when it's time for everyone to leave.


Monday, October 10, 2005

What do u think of the pic? Funny? Or...? well, don't care whatever you think of. I only wanna make my dear friend happy only. Just wanna let her know that she always got me around and care about her. Hopefully, my smile can cheer her up. LOVE YOU DEAR :) I wish i were near you and give u a real hug of love :) Posted by Picasa

Saturday, October 08, 2005

What a happy day? :D

Guess what? Today, I've been very happy since morning. He sent me an sms which is really sweet that could have made my heart melt hehehe... won't tell you what the sms said about :P Keep it in my heart heuy lolz...

After that great moment, I was called to go out with mom and sis. We went to a furniture shop to buy table with chair for my mother's friend as a present for her new house. While looking at them, I feel I wanna decorate my own house heheeh... Was thinking too far :P

Ah... that was then I and sis agreed to go swimming in the evening. Then we went there with my niece after my afternoon class. So long time that I never swim that I felt very tired after one moment of swimming. Should go often heuy merl tov heheeh...

When I was home nobody was down then I just came directly to my room as I had dinner already after leaving Parkway, where I swim.

Awe... isn't that nice to be home? What is more, to see somebody we want to see :) He was there and I was here hehehe... perfect, that's how it started.

Well, it seems late that the ending of the day was coming. My happy feeling still remains that then; we said some words that we wanna hear from each other. Ah.... what a sweet moment? hehehe....It was a happy ending lolz... I love it :)

Remember how he made me happy this morning? Well, that's how he made me to have a sweet dream with his sweet sms as ever yet it was sweeter than honey that you can taste ;) kekeke...


Wednesday, October 05, 2005

I'm talking about Wednesday

Well, I did enjoy my days though sometimes I spent a whole day at home, just like today. However, it seems great as I can still being with ppl through internet. Tonight I did enjoy chatting with friends, cousin, and my son. heheeh... Quite fun to have them all mixed up in a place lolz... But you know what is more special than that? I can still have a short but nice chat with U hehehe... thanks to U to have spared Ur precious time being with me. GoodLuck for tmr ;)

Anyway, during my holidays at home I watched for about 10movies. Those include 3korean movise, one cartoon, and the rest are US movise hehehe... Korean movies are all nice but kinda sad in the end. BTW, I like The Longest Yard(recommended by my son). It seems cool hehehe....

Ok, last day to enjoy is gone. I'll have to do what I should from tmr on. Be hardworking and responsible, unlike last year... esp, be on time lolz...



Real bored!

It shouldn't be this boring since it's still holiday but I just don't like staying at home on holidays. Did go out for a breakfast with friend though. It was suppose to be a real good time since it's a friend meeting but it turned out to be irritating when I was given a different food from what I ordered. I don't like vegetable and I told them not to added it in my food but they gave me a full of vegatable in the meal. Grrr... X-(

I'm complaining alot recently. Well, well, well,... don't take it too seriously. I'm just saying out, nothing else.


Tuesday, October 04, 2005

Phcum Ben Day

Today is Phcum Ben day so I went to pagoda with my family plus relatives and brother's friends which had made it seems to be crowded hehehe... After leaving pagoda we all headed to our famrland to have lunch and rest. I did had a long nap though I woke up later than others in the morning lolz... Later, we went to row the boat again. It was quite nice, the water moved little by little by the gentle wind before sunset. Well, well, well,... time to go home!!!

I did do my work for one hour, at last. Hahaha... sounds funny, right? But you know, I seldom spend time for my study hehehe...

Forgot to tell, today I did the washing. Hum... it's just alittle thing but kinda tired lolz...

Wednesday, September 28, 2005

Monday, September 26, 2005

Finally be able to be online ;)

Finally, my pc is repaired so I can be online at anytime I want. It dose sounds great; however, it didn't turn me up since all the files in my pc are gone. Not even a single thing is left. Imagine, all your works and pictures are no more can be seen or read, tell me how you feel.

Anyway, i did have a great day to which my result was out and I pass (no mark were told). On the same day, I met Rasmey Hang Meas's singer and stars on a conference for a new film. Well, they all look greater than in TV. I did take picture with them all ;) To some people, I am crazy in such a thing, but to some other people who got the same favorite as mine, they would say that's cool lolz...

For what is more special than this, I got an iPod from dad. He's just back from a trip to US, France and more, maybe, as I'm not sure. Well, he got me an iPod nano to which i love alot. Hum... Guess what? Before that, my bro got me and my sis an MP3 Player as well but I didn't take it as I thought my sis loves it more that I do and I think I can wait to get it later when he's back next time. However, as you can see, I don't really have to wait, I got it. Cool huh? Sometimes luck just came lolz...

By the way, during my absent day, I spent time with my little niece. She's ill and her mother was gone to see the doctor with my mum and her mother-in-law. Also my class started to which I got 3 assignment to do. By now I finished only one still have two more left. Well, not in a rush for my 3rd assignment that the duedate is in the late December, quite long huh? It seems but might not if I forgot it lolz... This means I need to do only one more assignment that is due this Tuesday. Hum... I just don't know how to start. Well, I'll just have to finish it tonight no matter what.


Sunday, September 11, 2005

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince

Well, up to the network problem, I can't post any pic that I do wanted to share. However, I still can post some words in here.

By the way, I've just finished one book called Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, a sort of fantasy story in which I would love to read all day long. It's been well-known for its unbeilieveable imagination of a woman named J.K.Rowling who had written 6 books of Harry Potter series and who had became one of the top millionaire for her best selling books. And this, Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince, is the 6th which had just realeased on the 16 July.

In the story of the 6th book is not only about the magic and all those creepy thing that has happened to a boy named Harry Potter but also the passion and love of teenager which have made the book even more unique. What is more than that, sorrow and pain are always be faced by all kind of people though they are more than just a human being. Harry who had known to be The Chosen One in wizard world had faced again the lose of his beloved and regarded head master Albus Dumbledore, a man who had always stayed behind giving him hope, courage, and help since he enter Hogwarts where Harry always feels he belongs to and that he feels like being home. In that scence, though I was just reading I was in tears because of the so emotional way of her writing.

Well, sadness and painfull feeling hadn't made him lose track from where he always be on. He still determine to chase the most evil wizard, You-know-who or He-who-must-not-be-name or easy to call, Voldemort who had killed his parents for his power. And also who had made him lost his god farther, Serious Black. And esp. that was the one who always trying to kill him, Harry Potter.

Really, I assure that it's the most interesting story I've ever read and I could never put it down once I got into it. I've been following since the first book was printed and its characteristic is differ from one book to another though it's mainly about the boy named Harry Potter.

Now I'm loging for the 7th book to be published and I'll be the first one on the line ;) (only if possible)

Anyway, I would like to say thanks to my dear who had sent me the book cos no store is good enough to sell it on time in here. And thanks for being known all about my needs and wants. Thanks and thanks again. :)

With Love,

This is all of us at the bowling center, parkway square
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high school friend Posted by Picasa

Saturday, September 10, 2005

Quitte a fun day ;)

Yesterday was one great day of mine. Morning went through easily without a doubt. Hopefully, what I feel is right. Lunch was served and later I had a nap. Quite along nap too hehehehe...

Afternoon came then I and sis went bowling with friends, high school friends and Uni friends. It was quite fun but I don't know why I get so low score :( yab man lolz...

After leaving we went to NinoMaxx, a cloth shop, to buy a present for my brother's friend's birthday. Then I bought one de tov :D

After leaving, we headed for a restuarant called Kuy Teav Touk in order to join a nother farewell party for Chantha who is going to Belgium for his degree. You know what a surprise? When we ask the date of his departure we realize that it was the same day as Thlay who had already gone to er... I forgot hehehe... well, we were in the same place, the same day, the same year, but different month hehehe... We took quite alot of pic and we were kinda noisy as well hehehe... tov kon leng na ke skal kon leng ning hhahaha...

Ok, that's it for today.

Monday, September 05, 2005

New pic for you to see ;)

I'm going for Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry now. I'm gonna be a wizard! kekekeke... so what do you think?

Friday, September 02, 2005

Plaster is used :D

I finally be able to use my plaster hehehe... it looks not so nice in the pic.. hum... well, whatever, as long as it's nice to me :P

Thursday, September 01, 2005

Hong Kong?

Hong Kong?

What do you think?
Interesting, isn't it?

Heheheh... yeah, it is to me. I always wish to go there one day. Now here comes my chance. Mum and sis are planing to go there next month. They asked if I wanna go but you know, I have to pay myself. Hum... That's too bad, right? I need fund now. Anyone wanna help? I would appreciate that if you do ;)


P.s: To go or not is depend on donation. If enough, I'll go but if not, I don't have enough luck to get the chance :(

Tuesday, August 30, 2005


This morning I went to school as usual but when I'm back there was call fromm an unknown woman who called me to get my stuff that is sent by my friend. Well, the stuff that I'm talking about is DVDs that you can see in the pic. Frankly, I don't really know if he's my friend or not cos we knew each other through the net which I have no believe in it. However, it's proved to be real now. I kinda hardly believe that there is a kind of people like him who would do so. Hum... Maybe because we are the same nation that made him doing it. I'm happy to know such a kind people like him, anyway.


Sunday, August 28, 2005

Smile appears on my face because of you :)

After reading all comments that were given to my previous post, I feel even better that now I can smile happily to you all as you can see in this pic. Thank you so much for your concern about me as well as to write me comments. I am thankful of your precious ideas which had helped me to feel much better than before; moreover, I seems to have strenth to fight against the problem that I am facing now.

Well, before, Diary was what I considered to be my only bestfriend that I can share both my sadness and happiness. But now, I found many bestfriend who are not just a book but a real person that exist in my life that I can share my happiness and sadness; in addition, they can give me ideas, suggestion, and comments (as what you did to my previous post).

Thank you all again and agian :)

Anyway, to reduce stress and to refresh my mind I had dicided to have a party with my old friend at my farmland. Actually, this plan had made since last sunday(before problem getting to me) but I was about to cancel it due to the depression I got from the problem I am facing now. However, after your support and care are given I choose to have it as it had planned.

Thanks again and again for your help. You means alot to me. I know and will always remember that I am not alone and you all are with me.



Thursday, August 25, 2005

Better to talk

I had been so down for the last few days and now I am still not well but a bit better after I had talked over the problem I got. I had never thought I would tell anyone how much do I suffer and never let anyone sees my weakness. However, last night, I did show it out. Not on purpose though. I know crying is not the solution but it does help when we don't know what to say or what to tell. Sharing was what I considered to be sth useless and shame to say but it had turned out to be a very useful way to consolve ourself. It does help me, though not much but at least not to cry again. I don't know what had changed me to be who I am now... So hard to say but it's like that...


Friday, August 19, 2005

Had a little fun with cutie niece ;)

Hang out with mum, sisters, and niece... it was not much but it took us hours to have a little dinner lolz... Hum... well, did play with niece in the car. Yeah, we had gone wild hahahahahaha.... it was so funny hehehehe.... er... just keep laughing and laughing then we arrived home :( need to say goodbye to my cute niece but well, she was asleep already lolz... ok, just leave and that's it.

Wanna hang out tomorrow as I don't have to go to school for a study club... it's friday lolz... yeah, yet, have to take piano lesson :( so boring lolz... don really like it now... just as usual, never practice at all... ok, parents had spent lots for that so have to, have to, and have to ... hum.. :(


Wednesday, August 17, 2005

I got BAD feeling after reading all those stupid comments

I had just visited, read the story, and read those comments in Darlinglife blog. I felt really really bad about those who said Cambodia is THUG! Another one is KEWLI who posted a comment in my blog, saying my country is so currupted. Really, where there is no corruption? I believe, every country is the same about this problem. It is just more or less.

I am terribly sorry to hear about Liling's problem that she had posted in her blog. According to the story in her blog, her husband's family use power to do what they wish for, kidnap their own son, banned him not to meet her again, taken away his passport, and never allowed to be connected with her, without any authority by law. She believes they could do such a thing because a member of his family is one important officer in military affair, also they are rich which could easily bribe the officer in order to do what they want.

Comments were given support to her and bad view of Cambodia were also given. They are right to say her husband's family is Thug but NOT Cambodian. It's just one small part that they can see but they made judgment as a whole. I completely disagree with what they are thinking and saying about Cambodia. Not because I am Cambodian (though it might play a part) but I know they had made it wrong.

She was told not to go to Cambodia by the embassador and her husband. It's not safe to be in Cambodia alone as she's a girl. I ask you, is it safe for a girl to be anywhere else beside Cambodia when she doesn't know the language and the location or...? Is it safe to be where you are not welcome? Is it safe to be where there is someone who against you and who had tried so hard to suffer you? Her husband told her not to come might be because he knows his family would do something bad to her but not that Cambodian would do something to her.

Ok, ok, ok,... There are many things to say but what I really mean is that Liling's problem is only about one family in Cambodia so you guys shouldn't judge Cambodian through only one thing that you can see. I, actually, accept that our country might not be as good as yours yet as you know, we had just started from below zero.

Hum... I am not good at convincing people to believe what is fact about my country but I really want people to know that we are not THUG.

Truly love cambodia,