It cracked my nerve. But then, madness leads to nothing but destruction; and obviously, I want nothing near to that. And so you see, I lock the pain inside and focus on what should be done for really, nothing of the past could be changed. It's the future to be worried about but it's once again beyond controllable.

I don't know how to feel. Either to be sad or happy; being older or more mature if that's what people called is not an easy task.