Too tired

I don't wanna be a normal person. I don't wanna be crazy. But I just don't wanna be one who do what people expect me to do. Why do I have this role? Why do I have to care what you said about me? Why do I bother using my brain thinking of this? Lots of thought in my mind. Lots and lots that it occurs at different time. So you see? Don't say that I lie when I said about one thing differently at different time. I just don't have the same code noted in my brain. It is a mess.

Now I'm tired of doing this. But later I might enjoy it. I can't tell why. I don't have the answer and I'm not seeking for one. Too tired and wanna rest after vacation.